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  • Posted 13 November 2025 by Natalie

    Anna Holmes
    Anna Holmes posted 17 August 2024 on annabookwriter.medium.com

    To My Unmasked Friend in the Fifth Year of COVID

    But you didn’t wear a mask.

    For whatever reason — you wanted to show off your makeup, it makes you itchy, you believed the messaging that COVID is endemic (what does that actually mean?), you just don’t think about it anymore — you made a choice that actively excludes people like me from participating not only in an event like a convention, but society at large. And yes, it is a choice. Every time you step out into the world without a mask on your face, you have made a decision that your very good reason, whatever it is, supersedes the right of disabled and at-risk people to exist safely in your orbit.

    Well, hold on, you say. It’s not any one individual’s fault, it’s the inadequate public health messaging. Isn’t that what you’ve been saying?

    And I have. In the past, I have talked about how it is unconscionable that health authorities have thrown their hands up and rescinded guidance that would have saved hundreds of thousands of lives and prolonged a pandemic that, to hear them tell it, has been bested. It hasn’t. Worst of all, the financial motivation that we all know is driving this premature victory lap isn’t even being fulfilled. Long COVID and other post-COVID complications are costing the global economy one trillion a year. Meanwhile, article after article handwrings about nobody wanting to work anymore, about the sagging college application scene, about declines in military enlistment, and the strain on our healthcare systems.

    All of this is very much the fault of our leaders, who have decided the political ramifications of “normalcy” are more important than the health and lives of the 400 million people living with long COVID across the globe, the immunocompromised folks who are increasingly being shut out of every conceivable public space, and the disabled community which has been screaming into the wind about our marginalization since before the virus even hit US soil.

    But I want to be very clear. You are helping them do this.

    …

    This hard but important post captures something I've wanted to express for years but have never found the words (or the courage) to say out loud. I try very, very hard to avoid getting outright angry at the people in my life who take no precautions against COVID. I tell myself over and over that their behavior is a product of larger structural forces that shape their understanding of themselves and of reality. This helps. It keeps me sane in an insane world.

    And when I talk to people about COVID, I am as non-confrontational as I know how to be. I frame everything in terms of my own safety measures and say nothing about theirs. This keeps me sane as well, because I do not have the energy or the skill or the grace to try to convince everyone I…

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  • Posted 7 November 2025 by Natalie

    Quark DS9: I wonder what the Vortas' favorite food is...
    Me: What is humans' favorite food?
    Me, a second later: dumpling

    1. star trek
    2. food

  • Posted 5 November 2025 by Natalie

    I just learned that Bette Midler's big break into stardom came from singing in a gay bathhouse, because NYC gays were such immense tastemakers pre-AIDS. What a wonderful little factoid.


    1. Noam Chomsky's evil twin

      Posted 1 November 2025 by Natalie

      Yes'm Chomsky


      1. Posted 31 October 2025 by Natalie

        Honestly I kind of think it would rule to just start using "ain't" in technical writing. "null ain't allowed here", that sort of thing. I'm probably not the person to do it because that's not part of my dialect but someone should.


        1. Posted 28 October 2025 by Natalie

          I truly detest the fact that the new Brand Synergy MTG Secret Lairs don't have real artist credits. They're crediting "SQUARE ENIX" for Final Fantasy cards and "B3: Fire, CH: 58" for [Avatar cards][1]. These are real pieces of art made by specific human beings (yes including the 3D model)! It used to be kind of a big deal in fantasy art circles to get your art on a Magic card, and these people aren't even going to get credit for it. Reducing the credit line to just listing the owner of the copyright is a shameful act, and while I know enough not to be surprised at WotC for it, I'm still disappointed.


          1. As a side note, look how hideous that card is. The art is visibly lower-res than the rest of it. I remember back in 2005 MTGSalvation kids would get a cracked Photoshop install, download the card frame PSD, and the first thing they'd do would be to disable all the frame elements and add a stroke to all the text and just have it hovering in empty space over full-frame art from their favorite TV show. This is embarrassing. ↩︎

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        2. Posted 28 October 2025 by Natalie

          I'm more annoyed than it's probably worth being that PlayStation's 4KHD player doesn't have any way of dimming the subtitles on HDR screens

          1. they're just SO DAMN BRIGHT
          2. it hurts to look at

        3. Posted 18 October 2025 by Natalie

          a movie is a film if there's a mirror shot

          1. with apologies to tsiro

        4. Posted 13 October 2025 by Natalie

          I can't look at the film The Smashing Machine without thinking that the title sounds like a British localization of The Incredible Machine.

          1. the smashing machine
          2. the incredible machine

        5. Posted 11 October 2025 by Natalie

          Review by Natalie Weizenbaum Patron

          The Shining 1980
          ★★★★½

          Watched Oct 10, 2025

          I came into this viewing kind of prepared to be underwhelmed. My recollection of this was of a visually striking film that was pulling in too many directions at once to really land thematically, kind of a collage of vibes and imagery that just swirls around without landing anywhere. But this watch made me feel like there was actually more there than I was giving it credit for.

          I think a lot of the sense of disjointedness i inherited from the book. They clearly wanted to keep the title, which means keeping the concept of "shining" and Tony. But it all feels superfluous in the context of the film's orientation around Jack rather than Danny. It's really only relevant in motivating Danny's interactions with Dick Halloran—a character who himself is done pretty dirty, existing only to explain the titular shining, deliver a warning about room 237, bring a means of escape, and then die instantly upon setting foot in the hotel. I can't help but feel that a story less chained to the novel could have restructured all of this into something more interesting.

          I do think Kubrick and Johnson made absolutely the right call in the way they framed Jack. The novel's more sympathetic portrayal (driven, reportedly, by King's own identification with the character) would undercut the ability to use the character to address patriarchy and abuse, and instead center the hotel as an ontologically evil place that corrupts indiscriminately. The darker, unsettlingly suave portrayal by Nicholson immediately raises red flags in his interactions with his wife and kids, and sets up a clear implication that his cruelty isn't just the product of either alcohol or the Overlook.

          The film is pointedly full of internal contradictions, and one in particular stood out to me. In the initial interview scene, Jack acts as though he has no knowledge at all of the previous murders. But not only does he identify Grady's ghost by sight, he specifically mentions having seen him *in the newspaper*, suggesting he was following the killings at the time and had known about them for years. We can then read his seeking employment at the Overlook as, in essence, a willing first step towards violence. Perhaps the hotel called to him, but he chose to answer that call.

          This then helps clarify the rest of the film. Jack Torrance isn't a flawed-but-fundamentally-innocent man being seduced by pure evil, he's a man who before the film ever began had fully bought into the patriarchal system that told him he must be an effortlessly brilliant writer and any roadblocks must be caused by his useless wife (whom we see not only cooking bountiful meals but doing Jack's actual job of maintaining the boilers) and his needy son. The Overlook doesn't corrupt him, it enables him. It provides the same background radiation white men have always experienced, just amplified: an understanding that he's always right, his actions are always justified, and that anything that pushes back against this worldview is an affront that must be destroyed with violence.

          The hotel itself has its own interesting background that's simultaneously undersold and reinforced by the "Indian burial ground" cliché. The whole thing is conspicuously decorated in Diné weaving patterns despite the offhand mention that they "had to repel a few Indian attacks as they were building it". The only person of color we see in its walls is Dick Halloran, who the hotel ghosts refer to later on with a racial slur. It's a place of conquest: an imperial stronghold built on the literal bones and decorated with the cultural spoils of a people dominated and subdued. In its heyday, Stuart Ullman tells us, it hosted the presidents who oversaw this terrible empire and the (implicitly European) royalty from whose fetid stock the project of colonialism was born.

          We see this heyday with our own eyes, first in Jack's visit to the ghost bar and then in the famous final shot. In most ghost stories, the previous grisly murder is the seed of trauma that blooms into a full-scale haunting, but the roaring 20s loom too large in the Overlook to make it credible that Grady's massacre was the point of origin. Grady himself is subsumed into the party, the endless ghastly New Years celebration of the rich and powerful, to which he is consigned to the role of a mere waiter. In this way, the film cannily links imperialism and patriarchy: the party, dancing on the bones of a conquered people, flouting Prohibition with glasses held high, too powerful to be touched by the laws they impose on the plebians at their feet, is the bloodthirsty engine that drives the caretakers to their violent fates; and it does so by nurturing in them visions of this conquest in miniature, driving these working men to play out the same murderous and domineering triumph in the only space where they have any real power: the family.

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